My First Time

First of all, the answer is no, this is not that kind of blog. I'm talking about my first time blogging, get your mind out of the gutter. Please just give me a minute, I want to remember this moment. 

Okay, I think I'm ready to continue and just so you know, I'm not being dramatic. For some time now, I have wanted to start a blog. I thought about it for months and actually started my own blog on our family website. However, it didn't really allow for the emotional release that I was going for; most likely because it was attached to our family website. Not only did this mean I had to keep it  on the PG rating scale, but also that I had to sensor everything I said, which came down to discussing the happenings of my then 2 year old and baby daughters. Now don't get me wrong, I'm a huge fan of the kid and baby stories, especially when they include pictures, but this wasn't exactly the direction I had in mind when I felt the pull towards the blogging world. For starters, a lot of the parenting stuff I wanted to blog about would fall into the category of things I didn't want my mother-in-law reading. Therefore, the family blog seemed to burn out before it really even started. I now update my diehard Kiya Chronicle fans through my Facebook status, which evidently led to my next dilemma. Certain family members also joined Facebook and suddenly my private social outlet was not so private anymore (especially with the redesign). 

At this point, I had pretty much given up any hope of finding my own private space in this world. Some of you may find this pretty funny, considering a blog is about as public of a space as you can find. I guess I wasn't exactly looking for a private space, but more of a public/private space where I could release some of my energy and not have to worrying about offending a family member. When you stay at home with two toddlers, there are very few places that are left sacred. My purse is ransacked for gum and lipstick, my jewelry box is hoisted by "imaginary" princesses and my car is a complete disaster. I realize I could simply write in a journal, but I've always avoided the simple answers and honestly, I like the idea of having the opportunity to create a dialogue among friends.

This is my attempt at finding that space and continuing my search for honesty, clarity, knowledge, enlightenment and humor in order to keep my hope alive...

Cheers ~